pagi isnin pergi klinik dengan idea nak mintak MC je... [thnx to sis yg sebelumnya berjaya convince ataupon errr hasut lah lebih tepat bahawa MC mudah je nak dapat] and maybe boleh buat-buat mintak ubat tahan muntah [lagi.. hehe]. yang dah ada dibekalkan oleh hospital razif tu [primperan] dah x sanggup nak makan lagi. memang lah x muntah, macam berkesan lah. tapi nausea bertambah kronik sebab yang nak keluar x dapat keluar. errgghh terseksa tell you! pastu terpaksa derhaka x dengar cakap hubby yang suruh makan ubat tu. buat-buat lupa dan macam-macam excuses terpaksa kena create each time.
berbalik pada cerita ni tadi, sebelum masuk bilik doctor, ingat x nak lah makan apa-apa, supaya memang nampak suffer giler and doctor tu dengan mudah boleh bagi MC. tapi doctor belum masuk. receptionist tu cakap doctor akan masuk jam 9 lebih, while clock just showed 8.40am.. so hubby ajak makan dulu.. kitorang pekena roti canai di kedai favourite. tapi lepas aje keluar kedai tu bila hubby settle bayar, semua roti canai tadi dah selamat keluar balik dahhhh... huhu. x sempat pon nak rasa apa itu erti full-stomach. sob sob...
masuk dalam klinik pergi 'bantai' lagi kat toilet pulak. sampai habis licin semua kacang dal dari dalam perut. habis licin. xde apa yang tinggal lagi. so padan muka i. tadi niat nak masuk bilik doctor dengan empty stomach kan?? there you go~
the lady doctor diagnosed me as hyperemesis gravidarum. first of all die scan my womb [for my third time] untuk tengok whether all these vomitting series does affect my baby or not. alhamdulillah everything is just fine. tapi i've got to have an intravenous rehydration; 500mL of 0.9% sodium chloride plus whatever-2-syringes-striking-yellow-drug she injected in it.
for the first few minutes before she injected the drug, i was all okay. alah, saline je kan. ape de hal. walaupon ni first experience having IV drip, and dicucuk di belakang tapak tangan; which i'm afraid AT MOST. tapi right after the drug ran into my vein [which i could feel conciously] terasa teruk sangat. masa tu Tuhan je tahu perasaan i. semuanya bercampur baur. tapi one thing for sure was dalam hati i satu question popped up; will my baby be OK through all this??? will this God-knows-what-drug harm my baby?? masa tu dalam kepala fikir baby je. risau sebab diri sendiri dah rasa macam nak explode!! sesak nafas, dan meronta semacam. even i boleh bau scent of the drug yang lalu kat throat that time. owh seriously paranoid nye i. tapi itulah yang i rasa. sumpah. hubby cepat-cepat datang berdiri sebelah katil dan genggam tangan i kuat-kuat. err ye ke genggam tangan?? or did he usap-usap kaki i?? argh i x fully concious lah. i cuma tau masa tu seram! rasa nak nangis tapi x tahu pulak mana pergi air mata murah i masa tu. heran.
kenapa? kenapa? okay x ni?
hubby kept asking banyak kali. tapi i x tau nak jawab apa. and actually x boleh nak jawab apa. suffocate [ataupon i psicologically je jadi camtu, i dont know!]. tapi as long as i know he is always right by my side, i will always be okay. dont you worry darling.
alhamdulillah x lama pon. lepas 3 minute tercungap-cungap macam ikan naik darat, after that i dah okay. tapi okay dari rasa suffocate with drug tu je. phenomenon lain pulak timbul. nak panggil hubby suara cam x ikhlas je keluar. macam dah panggil sekuat daya tapi apasal la dia x dengar-dengar. lepas tu nak angkat tangan macam hilang pulak nerve masa tu. kalau korang notice lah kat pic below, on my left hand ada scanned pic of our lil one. i nak pass over to hubby sebab at certain time i was not able to grip it well. tapi hubby lambat gile nak catch up apa yang i cuba nak bgtau dia. i nak angkat tangan bagi dia the pic tapi dia x nampak pon tangan i nak bagi dia. suma gara-gara all nerve rasa been weakened. arghhh seriously Tuhan lebih tahu lah mcm mana nak explain semua ni. i was badly drugged.
i boleh dengar doctor tu cakap lepas ni i akan mengantuk, and bila the IV drip ran out, dia suruh nurse untie semua tapi let me sleep for a while. actually i cant even i loved to. sebab i know i had a good reason to worry and wonder what was happening to my body. i tahan mengantuk tu. about sejam jugak kat situ before the doctor was ready to release me. dia suruh i bangun tapi i think she knew better that i wont be able to do it myself, so she lend me her hand. she supported me to sit, and then passed me to hubby. first self-assumption, ingatkan badan lemah aje, tapi bila turun dari katil tu macam imbalance giler. azab nye yaAllah.
keluar dari klinik tu melelong walaupon dipapah kuat oleh hubby. i noticed satu klinik stare at me time tu. cisss... tapi bila difikir-fikir balik, i pon surely akan tengok macam tu jugak kalau ada orang badly ill macam tu. biasa lah kita kan orang malaysia. prihatin. uhuk. walaupon termalu jugak sebab jalan macam orang mabuk, tapi..... kalau boleh jalan lurus dah lama i jalan lurus lah! x yah lah nak buat free show yang menarik perhatian kat situ. huhu~
at home, hubby temankan barang sejam dua lagi... eh ye ek?? actually i x tau. dapat bantal i terus x sedarkan diri and i x tau berapa lama hubby temankan i kat rumah. all i know is die pergi kerja lewat lagi. apapon i really appreciate that darling. thank you. and i love you.
sekian saja cerita HG. recovery?? akan menyusul nanti okay, promise *wink*
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