i feel the butterflies

this is 18th week diary

during last check up first question asked by midwife in pre-admission room was "baby gerak rasa tak?" and i answered quickly and shortly "tak"

lepas tu first question asked by dato' Dr pon exactly the very same one "baby gerak rasa tak?" and i answered quickly and shortly again "tak"

actually i am no good at this. i really have no idea how it feels and ape betul itu baby's movement? or just gas in the stomach? or maybe some nerves cramp? or all is my imaginary semata-mata? jadi lepas i balik, i do some research and yes, sepatutnya dah boleh start rasa baby's movement on 16th week onwards, but way too early to cherish it with husband sebab real kicking hanya boleh rasa lepas 23rd week [kalau tak silap]. jadi kalau before tu dah rasa pon, rasa sorang-sorang je lah. tapi by that day memang i confident x ada rasa apa-apa.

but lately [sayang i x sedar sejak bila, and i really love to date it actually!!] i feel butteflies in the stomach.. err lower part of it to be exact, i mean, at womb area. sekarang baru berani sure tentang ni sebab hari-hari rasa and quite consistent. urm, x macam nerves cramp, tapi kadang-kadang confuse jugak. tapi yang pasti bukanlah rasa memulas seperti nak membuang. itu sumpah, TIDAK. bukan macam tu. haha.

so now i wonder, is it too early? baca la dari mana-mana source pon, the answer is 'it is the time you start feeling the butterflies in the stomach". so i guess i'm right about it. tapi yang buat i musykil nih, nape members yang preggy now lambat benor menunggu baby's movement even they all dah reach 20th [and more] week?? adekah diorang tak alert enough with those little [or should i say tiny] feelings?? rugi lah camtu...

hubby pon ada tanya
"rasa dia gerak-gerak?" sambil usap my belly [padahal u wont be able to share it yet for sure]

"urm... rasa, tapi..."

"tak tau betul ke tak?"

"haah.."

anyway, agak pelik tapi benar. thanks doc for keeping me alert. i enjoy it but still, agak frust sebab i really want to date bila it actually start happening.. apapon tetap bersyukur di atas semua kuniaan Tuhan. terima Kasih Tuhan kerana anugerahkan aku pengalaman berharga dari hari ke hari, dan juga seorang lelaki bernama suami untuk berkongsi semuanya bersama.

*real quick entry in the audit day, sempat jugak anyway, huh? hehe *peace*

note: hubby and i sekarang ada perkara runsing. tak ingat bila next check up date, and i lost my check up card pulak... haisehhh~ itulah sape suruh tukar dengan yang gabak punya! kan dah tak boleh simpan dalam purse.